And in the end…the plans we make are equal to the plans we break.

I feel like writing because of the quarter life crisis I seem to be undergoing.  If you haven’t already noticed, I have been doing a lot of traveling and trying to accomplish several things because not only do I want to do them, but I am afraid of never having the opportunity again.  I am afraid of the future as graduation is hastily approaching.  As much as I thrive on spontaneity and whimsical thought processes, there is always an underlying set goal behind it all.  Which all sort of led me to think….

We all have some sort of concise plan for what we desire in life.  Some are more detailed than others.  For instance:  I want to be married at 25 or My dream job is to work for ____ (insert company here), etc. etc..  Making a plan for your life is essential when you have goals, but through the past few years and through the people I love I have learned how much the plan is not what is usually going to happen.

Ironically, the plan is the most important thing you have.  It’s what leads to you to your underlying passion.  I just feel like God has a way of taking you the most roundabout way to get there.  It is important to have a list of all the things you want and see what happens from there and have an open heart to the answer being opposite of what you thought.  Not exactly following your plan could be the most stressful and scary leap of faith in your life, but I don’t think anyone truly lives until they step outside of their comfort zone.

All of this is coming to mind because of the Grad School decision process I’ve been going through this year.  A year ago I was about to intern at a pharmaceutical company and expecting to be working the next year.  Then come September I decided it would be smart to apply to grad schools.  Today I have about two weeks to decide between two wonderful grad schools.  I keep thinking about the plan I have in my head, but the feelings in my heart seems to over power.  One of the schools is prestigious, well-known, and very promising, although the feelings I had when I visited were off.  It threw me for a loop because this was where my heart was set.  The other school is less-known, does not have the same prestige reputation but I know in my heart that I would probably be happier there.  The plan of what I thought I wanted has been flip flopped on several occasions, but if I never had a plan to begin with then I would have never been in the situation I am in now.  I am very appreciative of having choices and I thank God for that.  When do you know to go with your heart rather than your head?  Why is the cliche saying ‘Everything happens for a reason’ so undeniably true?

My boss today heard me talk about my decision dilemma and told me a story about how things happen for a reason.  About 10 years ago when she was exactly in the same place as me she was about to graduate and start her new job.  A month before graduation her adviser had told her that she needed to take another class to graduate that my boss had never known about.  She was absolutely devastated because she had already had her life planned out and this was not in the cards.  All problems are relative, but at the time it felt like her future was crumbling.  The way that her school worked was that she needed to stay a whole other semester to graduate.  Her dad told her that “everything happens for a reason” but for a 22 year old ready to take on the world, those words don’t seem realistic at the time.  She ended up staying for an extra semester and met a guy, now her husband, whom she has been married to for 9 years and has a baby boy with.  The job she didn’t end up taking she found was a miserable corporation and she found her calling in another area, that although paid less, was where she found more happiness.

It meant a lot to hear this story.  I’d like to hear about other people’s roundabouts to their ultimate goals and overall happiness.  It is inspiring.  I want to know how you seized an opportunity that your heart said was right against your head’s will.  How you are now thankful for the stress you experienced.  Feel free to share :).

“Life is what happens to you while you’re busy making other plans.” -John Lennon

God bless.

2 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. travis
    Mar 28, 2012 @ 13:06:05

    Really nice writing Kelly, I enjoyed it and feel I am going through a similar thing . Keep it up 🙂


  2. anonymous
    Mar 28, 2012 @ 21:32:24

    I had my heart set on computers since high school. So I went and got an IT degree in college, then got sick of my job and quit after 3 month. My parents through I was mad quitting a high paying job and going back to school. So I leant a brand new subject, and rework my way from entry level. In the process I met my wife in an unlikely scenario. Then quit my job, got married. 3 days after I got back from overseas wedding, I found myself a senior position job in the company that dominates the local industry. Now I’m happily married with a house and have a kid on the way. I hope everything works out for you, the high power above has a plan for everyone.


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